Monday, May 30, 2011

Homework can suck it

   Obviously i'm procrastinating my homework even more by updating my blog....oh well. I'm in the middle of writing a paper that i've had a week to write, but i'm almost done. So I don't know why I can't just suck it up and just finish it already. Oh well...anyways it's raining, surprise surprise right? I love it, but it's cold. Idaho rain has nothing on Florida storms..
  Today is just one of those days where I don't wanna do anything all day. I just wanna lay around and do nothing. Maybe i'll pop in a movie or something when my homework is done.
 So funny story, my mom called me and she started getting frustrated with my kenna, turns out they were in the mall and they were in the little play area and kenna thought she was a cat and came up and tried to lick my mom's face...hahaha oh gosh, I miss that girl so much. Beginning of July I can see her again. She is too cute.

 I need madi here with me so I can vent to her....so madi COME TO REXBURG NOW! Anyways, i'm slowly becoming stressed about everything and i'm almost to my breaking point. But i'm taking a few steps back and taking a deep breathe and pushing forward...I need the beach..now.

Day 8: A place you've traveled
  Well there are a lot of places i've traveled but i've been to NYC and I liked it there and all but it was very dirty. I saw a lot of interesting things on the streets..but the coolest part that I remember was taking a picture with the naked cowboy in the middle of time square. haha that was interesting...

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Oh Florida please be still tonight...

 Ahhh! I seriously am missing home SOO much right now. I wanna be on the beach like none other, and just be tan, eat hot cheetos and just be covered in sand and jump in the water. Go fishing, lay on the boat, and just go swimming with friends. Ugh less then two months. So far its going by pretty fast..it is almost june and i'm pretty pumped about it.
   So far it's been a pretty fun weekend, been pretty busy and just chilling and hanging out with friends. No school tomorrow...freakin holler! Thank goodness, I need another day to sleep in before school this week. But anyways that's all the news for now...

Day 7: Your favorite movies
 Well I have a lot of favorite movies...so i'll just name a couple..
  Step Up 1-3
  Avatar
  A walk to remember
 All the Bourne movies
 Despicable Me
 She's the Man
 and many others that I can't think of...these are just off the top of my head

Saturday, May 28, 2011

ugh :/

 You know how there is just that one maybe little mistake you've made in your past, that no matter what you do, it is always there to haunt you. Yeah well, mine always comes back when i'm starting to be happy. I don't know what it is, but it screws everything up, every single time.
 It's like I can't be happy with certain things, and it literally happens every single time. Idk why, but I wish it would stop. Maybe that's the reason I screw things up with people all the time. I've never been good with certain things, and this doesn't help. But it's my fault because it was a mistake I made, and there is nothing I can do about it now, but just try and push through it no matter how hard it may be.
  The mistake I made was because I didn't wanna hurt anymore, I was numb to everything, and I still am. ( btw i'm NOT having sex, doing drugs, drinking, or anything of that nature, it's a psychological problem? maybe? idk how you would describe it...and no i'm not going crazy either....) But I am numb to certain things because of crap that has happened in my past. But like I said, i'm slowly pushing forward, trying to shake that feeling. I'm slowly getting better, but as long as i'm taking baby steps, it's progress and at this point, i'm happy with that.

  Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy
The beach is my happy place...I miss it more than words can describe. ( this is the island we drive our boat out to :) cant wait to go home and go to it) 

    

Friday, May 27, 2011

it's the freakin weekend baby...yeah!

 I honestly thought this was the longest week EVER. but it's finally friday and it's a three day weekend..freakin holler :) annyywayys.....not much to update on today, so looks like i'm skipping to the 30 day challenge

Day 5: A song that matches your mood
     Today's song that matches my mood would be Up by Jesse McCartney...just one of them catchy songs that makes me wanna dance!

Thursday, May 26, 2011

cant.stay.awake

 I gotta start going to bed earlier...this whole going to bed after midnight thing aint working out anymore. I come and take a nap before I start homework, but sometimes a nap just doesn't cut it. I should probably get ahead on homework....I think I just might do that...it might cut my stress level in half...maybe...hopefully.
  It's so weird that midterms are just around the corner...honestly..where do these semesters go? For real...they go  by too fast sometimes.
  Welp..that's really it..today is going to be kinda my lazy day and so i'm going to lay in bed and do some good ole homework..blleehh:/

Day 4: your parents
  soo i'm guessing i'm supposed to describe my parents or something..maybe just talk about them? Idk. But, I love parents. They are honestly one of the goofiest married couples I know. My dad is just crazy and sometimes when i'm with him I feel like i'm five. Me and him will ALWAYS get these random video ideas and then film them at 2 in the morning when neither of us can sleep. We always laugh at the most random things. I honestly don't think there is ever a dull moment when we are together. He could keep me laughing for hours. We have made random midnight ice cream runs, mcdonalds runs...and lots of other random adventures. My mom thinks we are totally retarded sometimes...but she knows we are way funny(and she even joins in sometimes). Even though my dad has only been in my life for like 8 yrs now..I honestly feel like I have known him my whole life. I am so happy that me and him have gotten so close over the years, and I really hope we stay that way. My mom....there is just literally SO much to say about her. She is amazing. I love her more than words can describe and without her my life would NOT be where it is today. She is my best friend...I talk to her about anything and everything. I don't feel like I couldn't talk her about anything...I know I could talk to her about whatever and she wouldn't judge me. She would give me the advice I needed and she would help me. Me and her are so much alike it's honestly disgusting sometimes...haha..we look alike and sound alike...sometimes its like we could be sisters. I honestly couldn't ask for better parents, they have always been there for me and I know they always will be. I love them so much and I appreciate everything they have done for me, and I cannot wait to see them and the rest of my family in the beginning of July for our last family reunion!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

happy girl:)

 Well, this has been an AWESOME week so far...just everyday has been good, and i'm loving every single second of it! The rain finally stopped..thank goodness. I don't think I  could handle another day walking around campus soaking wet and freezing cold. Dumb rexburg...tighten up for real.
  Anyways...three day weekend coming up and i'm stoked:) finally get to sleep in. I still haven't got hardly any sleep this week...it sucks. This time in two months i'll be back in the 813 baby:) ahh can't wait to see my friend, family AND be on the boat, go to the beach, go fishing...it all sounds TOO good right now. Come on July come faster please!!

 Day 3: Your first love
  Well..."when I was thirteen, I had my first love"......hahaha kidding. To be honest, I don't think I could really say I ever had a first love. I mean everyone has that one person they will always have feelings for, but never have I told a guy that I loved them. To me it's not a word I wanna throw around. I want to only have to say it once, and I want to mean it. So no, no first love here, I really liked someone like a lot...more than i've liked someone before( but those feelings are gone)... but their name shall not be mentioned, other than that...i've never really been in "love".

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

ohh rexburg...

 I just LOOVVEE walking home in the pouring rain and there being freakin 50mph winds, being cold and soaking wet....just absolutely love it.
  Anyhow, I feel like I have gotten zero sleep since last Thursday, and I really haven't. I've either been up late with the roommates or doing homework. Being in college seriously blows sometimes. Oh well..what can ya do?
 Oh, and can I ask WHY everyone seems to be getting engaged lately? Is it because it's spring or something? Whatever it is people are dropping like flies out here. Guess that's what you would expect coming out to BYU- I do. One of my friends is basically going to be engaged soon, and one of my roommates is about to be engaged within the next couple weeks, and another one of my roommates got engaged earlier this semester. Guess my teacher wasn't kidding when he said that spring time is when everyone gets engaged.

   Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name
      Well, to be honest there really isn't a meaning behind my blog name. It's actually from a song, and I just happened to be listening to it while I was setting up my blog. So I thought it sorta fit...haha

 

Monday, May 23, 2011

30 day challenge..starts....now!

Day 1: recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts
Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3: Your first love
Day 4: Your parents
Day 5: A song to match your mood
Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7: Favorite movies
Day 8: A place you've traveled to
Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friend
Day 10: Something you're afraid of
Day 11: Favorite tv shows
Day 12: Something you don't leave the house without
Day 13: Goals
Day 14: A picture of you last year - how have you changed?
Day 15: Bible verse
Day 16: Dream house
Day 17: Something you're looking forward to
Day 18: Favorite Place to Eat
Day 19: Something you miss
Day 20: Nicknames
Day 21: Favorite Picture of yourself ALL TIME Why?
Day 22: What's in your purse?
Day 23: Favorite Movie
Day 24: Something you've learned
Day 25: Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26: Your Dream Wedding
Day 27: Original Photo of the city you live in
Day 28: Something that stresses you out
Day 29: 3 Wishes
Day 30: a picture of yourself this day and 5 good things that happened since you started the challenge




Alright well here it goes:
Day 1: recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts
  1. I never get nervous
 2. I hardly ever cry
 3. I cannot stand fake people (especially fake girls) and liars
 4. I am never afraid to be myself
 5. I love to sing and dance
 6. I am probably one of the most sarcastic people you'll meet
7. I've played the flute for 9 years
8. I am not your typical girl, I would rather be outside doing something rather than sitting inside and doing my nails.
9. I love making people laugh and smile, if I can do it atleast once a day i'm a happy camper
10. I can be really good at hiding my feelings
11. I will not change for anyone, if you don't like me, then too bad
12. I can be too nice sometimes
13. I generally don't think before I speak ( it's something i'm working on haha) 
14. My family is everything to me 
15. If you dare me to do something...9 times out of 10...i'll do it. 

Saturday, May 21, 2011

paz, amor, felicidad:)

 soo this weekend has been crazy fun, and I am exhausted..like completely pooped. I wanna crawl into bed and sleep for the rest of my life.
   Played soccer last night and this morning..i'm getting a whole lot better. Then went and played golf...which I completely S.U.C.K. like no joke. But it was fun anyways, THEN I went and played volleyball...which just totally put me overboard.
  Got my hair cut today..and i'm not totally sure if i'm in love with it yet..but we shall see. Anyhooo...i'm pretty much loving life at the moment...Everything is going awesome:)
   OH! and I got to watch space jam which I have been wanting to watch in FOREVER. Let me just say...that I've missed that movie soo much! It is one of my all time favorite movies.
  That is my update on life for the moment...
 peace :)

Friday, May 20, 2011

just maybe...

mkay sooo....

maybe we won our soccer game the other night
maybe i'm becoming obsessed with soccer
maybe we went and saw the midnight premiere of priates
maybe i'm running on less then 5 hours of sleep and mtn dew
maybe i've gotten through my day somehow and managed to get all my hw done
maybe I can tell i'm going to have a good weekend
maybe i'm just loving life right now

and maybe....juussstt maybe there is something else... ;)

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

ew. ew. ew. EW!

  ;vwklngoprinrpwibwp I.am.so.very.annoyed.
 ugh, okay I don't understand why guys like stupid girls. Honestly, or even why they hang out with them. I just don't get it. It is highly annoying. Like is that what guys find attractive? Stupidity? If that's the case looks like imma be single for the rest of my life cause there is NO way I am lowering myself down to that level.
 So girls look.... being stupid aint cute so please for the love of everything that is good in this world, just STOP! You look ridiculous, and people ARE making fun of you...to your face most of the time.
and guys, stop going for the ditzy girls who so nothing but laugh at anything and everything. Just because they are "pretty" doesn't make up for the fact that they are complete idiots. Going for those types of girls just makes you look just as bad. So please...i'm on my hands and knees BEGGING you...don't even think about it.
 Sorry, I had to go off there for a second. I encountered some highly ahh-nnoying girls and man oh man did they make me wanna rip my hair out! I just don't understand how guys can even bare to have a conversation with them...like it hurts my head to hear them speak. smh..to those guys who like those types of girls, and I guess I gotta give you props to even talk with them..cause I sure as heck can't do it.
  
   OH! and i'm guessing cause it's spring and it's warming up, all of the couples in this dang town decided to crawl out of their holes, and mock me. GO HOME! hahaha..no, but seriously though...
    Let me just say that I am highly tired of being single. I've been single for soo long now and i'm over it, and you know what? It's those ditzy girls who are getting all the guys attention. I just don't get it. I don't know if guys find me intimidating because i'm not like that or what. But seriously...I have my eye on some guys but it's always some bimbo who is ALWAYS there to step in front of me and snatch his attention, and honestly i'm at that point where i'm done even trying. It's not worth the competition. It's just not. Anyways, that's that.

venting over...sorry.

Other than that..it's been an awesome week so far. FHE was fun last night, and got to play some more soccer. Got another game tomorrow and I am ready to dominate! haha ANNNDDD I got a 84 on my first test of the semester..freakin hoolleeerr! :) Totally made my day. Now time for nap and some good ole homework...

Sunday, May 15, 2011

party, party,party, let's all get waaa....wait were at byu:)

   This weekend .....
  danced the night away with roomies
   movies
   lots and lots and lots of laughs
   soccer ( and basically becoming a baller)
   getting some sun ( yes i got a little tan!!)
   LOTS of pizza
   sore bodies
   ...and singing lots and lots of Bieber

good weekend? I think yes. Sadly the fun filled weekend is coming to an end. I love my roomies. I think we always laugh about something totally ridiculous everyday. I love that we can all be crazy together, and just that we all get along.
 The weeks just seem to go by so fast out here. It's good and it's bad. I miss my family A LOT, and I can't wait to see them in just two months! I really do think that this is going to be another hard semester to leave behind. Me and my roomies are slowly becoming super close. I honestly appreciate everything that they do for me. Even though it may not be much.
  Just them being examples to me, I have slowly started to become a better person. They are honestly awesome girls and I couldn't of asked for better roommates. :)
   Welp, it's about that time to start more on my homework...bleh. Buuuttt it has to be done. So here we gooo...

Friday, May 13, 2011

it's a love, hate kinda thing....

 LOVE
 this awesome weather
that me and my roommates have lots of laughs everyday
that i'm out here at this school
playing soccer (even though i'm not great)
being so sore after the gym
my family
looking for a job is getting a little easier
making a random person smile
that i get to see my family again in 2 months
my life :)

HATE
living the single life ( it's getting kinda old now...)
waking up at 6 everyday for class
that idaho doesn't have a beach
guys that are tools
not living closer to my family(especially my momma)
homework
studying
taking tests in the testing center
that glee has re-made rebecca black's song friday.......

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Live.Laugh.Love

  Mommmmyyy :) Happy Mother's day to my wonderful and beautiful mother! I honestly couldn't ask for a better mother. She has always been there for me. I know I can always go and talk to her about anything. She is my best friend. She has taught me a lifetime of lessons that I will always carry with me throughout my life. I have watched her growing up and I am honestly amazed at how much that woman can go through and still keep her head up, and wake up every morning and be happy.
    My mom has always been my little cheerleader. She always is there to support me in everything. Every baseball game, cheerleading competition, every single high school football game for four years to watch me during half  time( even though she has seen the show millions of times), and even the little things. No matter what I can count on my mom to be there. Even being away from home, she is still cheering me on from miles away. She knows what I am capable of. She knows that I can do so much, even when I think I can't. She is always there to give me that little push.
     She never fails to make me smile, laugh or even sometimes cry ( for good reasons). I hope that one day when I become a wife and a mommy that I am half the wife and mother she is today. She continues to amaze me everyday. I'm so grateful for the friendship I have with my mom. Even though sometimes we have our disagreements ( because we both can be so hard headed at times), I may lose patience with her, don't thank her everyday, or even just screw up completely, she still loves me. And I know that no matter what my mom will always be there to help me through whatever I may need help with. So here's to you mom! Happy Mother's day. I Love you :)

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

it's spring tiimmee!

   I know I know..we have ALL been waiting for it...it's finally warm in the burg! Did't wear a jacket to class today and tomorrow it's supposed to be in the..wait for it....70's! Which means right after class at 11:15 you will find my happy butt out in porter park playing basketball wiff muh gurlz Brooklyn and Jessica :) I'm so stoked! Finally get to soak up some more sun...and get rid of this pasty grossness on my body. haha
   I've also started working out in the gym instead of just going out on a run at night, and I am super sore, but man does it feel good :) I love working out..it's the best feeling in the world.
   Anyways..i'm just happy the weather is finally warming up and i'm enjoying the sunshine..it puts me in a better mood :)
    Yay spring time!

Sunday, May 1, 2011

i.am.happy.

   This weekend was sad and good at the same time. My parents left friday morning, which was a kind of a huge bummer. It's weird now that after a week of hanging out with them, they aren't here anymore. But I had so much fun spending time with them and goofing off. It was something I needed after four months of not seeing them. But now I have to wait another three months before I see them. But i'm pretty sure I can do it :)
     Yesterday was such a nice day. Me and Brooklyn were outside all day. We went and sat in the park and watched people play frisbee and basketball while we soaked up some sun. I think the weather is finally turning around, thank goodness. Today was a good day too. I just love sundays. Everything about them. Going to church, relaxing for the day, thinking about all my great blessings in life, and just being around awesome people. Today I came home from church with flowers on my bed...little does that person know, it put a huge smile on my face. Def made my day 10 times better.
    Okay, so Caitlyn has reminded me that I have been slacking on my blogging...and I have.( So your welcome cait haha) But so far there is nothing really new to write about. Except that everything in life is going great. No new guys yet...but for now that's okay. Until then i'm just enjoying the semester, making new friends, going out and having fun, and focusing on school. I am truly grateful for everyone and everything in my life. I honestly couldn't ask for better friends or a better family. Love you all :)