starting new..but not giving up.

  Let me just first start off with all the good things that have happened. First week of my third semester ends tomorrow, and even though my classes are already kicking my butt and loading me up with homework, i'm really loving them and I love all my teachers which is good:) As I already mentioned before, I'm a sociology major, and I maybe want to work in corrections..maybe not. I do want to work with criminals though. But one of my classes kinda talks more about social work and stuff and i'm sort of considering that too. But who knows. We will just see how this semester goes with my classes and stuff. OH! and the best part of my week of course is......MY PARENTS WILL BE HERE TOMORROW :) I haven't seen them in like four months and couldn't be more stoked to see them.
   Anyways now on to the real reason for this post..I don't really consider myself "lucky" when it comes to guys and relationships. I have had my fair shares of being screwed over..and honestly it never really seems to change. Maybe it's the guys i go for.... Who knows. All I know is..i'm over it. I'm over being told the same things, tired of being the one who puts forth effort(sometimes more than I should), i'm tired of being treated like dirt, and most importantly...i'm just plain tired of getting hurt.

   I talked with one of my best friends last night and he gave me some advice and basically told me that I didn't need to be putting myself down, and that he knows that, that is just not me. And he is right. If you know me you know that i'm not one to bring myself down. I always brush things off and move on. But for some reason lately I haven't done much of that..i've been dwelling on things I know I can't change. Why? I don't know..but that's going to change...fast. He also told me that i'm going to have to go through  the darkness to get to the light...he told me that he knows this last part might suck to hear but I need to be patient because God has a plan for me. He couldn't be more right. Yeah it did suck to hear that cause i'm not a patient person. But that right there is the reason he is one of my best friends.
   This semester, i'm starting new. I'm not going to make it as easy as I have in the past for guys. I've always made them work for me..but now they are going to have to work harder, i'm not settling for second best anymore. It's not fair to let myself go through the same things over and over again. But on the bright side..every guy i've come across and has hurt me or whatever..they have actually helped me. They showed me exactly what not to go for in a guy. So a HUGE shout out to them...you weren't a complete waste of my time.. ;)
   Anyways, this wasn't to bash guys and go against them...I know there are good guys that are worth going after out there..i've just been looking in all the wrong places. But it's okay ..cause I know that now. So girls, don't give up on guys. I know that most of the time they can be complete jerks...but trust me..even though I haven't had much luck..there ARE guys worth it out there. I'm sure of it and i'm determined to find them. Don't give up completely...it's okay to take a time out occasionally, just don't push all guys away. Just think of the ones who don't work out as learning experiences. There is a awesome guy out there for all of us girls just dying to make us happy. I am sure of it:) Here is one of my favorite quotes that is so true and I find it quite helpful.. "If he's not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he's showing up at your new residence to do it in person... if he's not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately, he's just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it's like to live without you."[He's Just Not That Into You]  
 So for now, i'm keeping my chin up and staying positive..cause I deserve to :)