starting new..but not giving up.

  Let me just first start off with all the good things that have happened. First week of my third semester ends tomorrow, and even though my classes are already kicking my butt and loading me up with homework, i'm really loving them and I love all my teachers which is good:) As I already mentioned before, I'm a sociology major, and I maybe want to work in corrections..maybe not. I do want to work with criminals though. But one of my classes kinda talks more about social work and stuff and i'm sort of considering that too. But who knows. We will just see how this semester goes with my classes and stuff. OH! and the best part of my week of course is......MY PARENTS WILL BE HERE TOMORROW :) I haven't seen them in like four months and couldn't be more stoked to see them.
   Anyways now on to the real reason for this post..I don't really consider myself "lucky" when it comes to guys and relationships. I have had my fair shares of being screwed over..and honestly it never really seems to change. Maybe it's the guys i go for.... Who knows. All I know is..i'm over it. I'm over being told the same things, tired of being the one who puts forth effort(sometimes more than I should), i'm tired of being treated like dirt, and most importantly...i'm just plain tired of getting hurt.

   I talked with one of my best friends last night and he gave me some advice and basically told me that I didn't need to be putting myself down, and that he knows that, that is just not me. And he is right. If you know me you know that i'm not one to bring myself down. I always brush things off and move on. But for some reason lately I haven't done much of that..i've been dwelling on things I know I can't change. Why? I don't know..but that's going to change...fast. He also told me that i'm going to have to go through  the darkness to get to the light...he told me that he knows this last part might suck to hear but I need to be patient because God has a plan for me. He couldn't be more right. Yeah it did suck to hear that cause i'm not a patient person. But that right there is the reason he is one of my best friends.
   This semester, i'm starting new. I'm not going to make it as easy as I have in the past for guys. I've always made them work for me..but now they are going to have to work harder, i'm not settling for second best anymore. It's not fair to let myself go through the same things over and over again. But on the bright side..every guy i've come across and has hurt me or whatever..they have actually helped me. They showed me exactly what not to go for in a guy. So a HUGE shout out to them...you weren't a complete waste of my time.. ;)
   Anyways, this wasn't to bash guys and go against them...I know there are good guys that are worth going after out there..i've just been looking in all the wrong places. But it's okay ..cause I know that now. So girls, don't give up on guys. I know that most of the time they can be complete jerks...but trust me..even though I haven't had much luck..there ARE guys worth it out there. I'm sure of it and i'm determined to find them. Don't give up completely...it's okay to take a time out occasionally, just don't push all guys away. Just think of the ones who don't work out as learning experiences. There is a awesome guy out there for all of us girls just dying to make us happy. I am sure of it:) Here is one of my favorite quotes that is so true and I find it quite helpful.. "If he's not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he's showing up at your new residence to do it in person... if he's not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately, he's just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it's like to live without you."[He's Just Not That Into You]  
 So for now, i'm keeping my chin up and staying positive..cause I deserve to :)
   

Home Sweet Home

 Welp...I finally moved outta Tuskanky...I mean Tuscany. Boy was it a long day. Could not fall asleep last night. I got up at the butt crack of dawn (6:30 AM) and showered and started my nine hour day of moving back and  forth. I honestly think I got enough exercise to last me the rest of my life...like no joke. I ran up and down stairs with boxes and huge bins for almost two hours, and yes I did it all by MYSELF! Note to self: for future reference, when moving from place to place, even though you can do it, help it ALWAYS nice. Anyways, it also helped that a friend let me use his car to get this job done. Huge shout out to Brandon for that..without your car I would probably still be hauling crap haha I honestly am proud of myself for all the work I did today. A lot of the stuff was heavy too, guess i'm just a baller like that ;) ha.
  Anyways, after hours of back and forth, going and running some other errands, and unpacking I finally got my room together and everything situated. My legs are super sore and i have blisters on my hands and feet. But i'm not complaining. Like I said before i'm proud of myself for my hard work today.
   I think that I might actually really like it in my new place. I mean at first I was a little nervous about sharing a room, cause in my other place I had my own room. But i'm loving my ghetto fabulous place:) I met some of my roommates and they are way nice so i'm thinking this could be another good semester!

    Well, in exactly ONE WEEK my parents and my little sister will be here and I cannot stress enough how stinkin excited I am to see them! I haven't seen them since January...which was also the last time I was home. And let me just say that I am super jealous of everyone back at home, i'm dying without my tan. July baby..me and the beach holla! Anyways, i'm sorry but I can't believe how sore I am, like it hurts to walk. But i'm just chillin on my bed with some cheez-its and listening to some Mayday Parade and just loving life at the moment. :) I think i'm just a little obsessed..whataya think? ha. But even though i'm excited to be in my new apartment and get to meet new people, as I was leaving with my last box out of my old place, I thought of all the fun timesI had in there. But now it's on to bigger and better adventures! I'm hoping that this place and the people that live here are as awesome as people talk it up to be. But anyways, that my update on life for the day. I'm thinking about hitting the sheets early tonight, and sleep in tomorrow. I think I kinda deserve it:)

only 2 more days, re-cleaning,beautiful weather, and itching to start on my major:)

  Alright I only have two more days left in this empty apartment before I move to my new ghetto-fabulous place. I Really am super excited to get out of Tuscany a.k.a "Tuskanky" and into Brooklyn. Most of the girls here seem kinda stuck up, but don't get me wrong i've met some pretty awesome girls here too. But I've heard some pretty good things about my new place, so i'm hoping all goes well. I am however, super nervous to be rooming with a complete stranger. I'm going from my own room to sharing. This good either be really good, or extremely bad. Fingers crossed it all works out!
  So my manager here at Tuscany has been blowing up my phone ALL day, I went out for a walk today and she came into my apartment with the cleaning crew and was basically freaking out because she doesn't know which stuff is mine and what stuff was left by the other girls, I told her I would be home soon and that I could show her. I slept on the couch and she told me I wasn't allowed to do that. Ummmmmm...excuse me? Last time I checked I didn't see a sign or anything on the contract that says we aren't allowed to sleep on the couch. I payed to stay here so I will sleep where I please, thank you very much! :) Sorry, I had to go off for a minute, I honestly tried not to laugh while on the phone with her. So basically I have to clean everything after I use it until I leave because girls could check in at anytime...not that i'm a dirty person, but really? I'll clean everything again when I leave, plus she already said no one will be living in this apartment next semester. Geez, can you guess why i'm leaving now?!?
    The weather is finally getting warmer!! It's been sunny most of the day, and then it rains, but the sun comes right back out! It's awesome not having to wear a jacket every time I walk out. I can't wait for everyone to get back so I can go long boarding and just be outside!
   For those of you who don't know, I'm majoring in sociology with clusters in criminology and psychology of sociology ( I think that's what it's called). Anyways, I'm seriously itching to start my classes for it. I'm probably more excited than I should be, but I don't care:) I want to work with criminals,  preferably serial killers. Maybe something with profiling, I want to know what goes on inside their heads and what drives them to be they way they are. Anyways, my future semesters should be fun, and interesting!

Goodbye Winter...What's up spring semester!

  Well finally came to the end of my second semester of college. This semester was awesome, I had soo many good times, met tons of awesome people and made tons of memories. There is not one thing i regret doing, nor do i regret the people i met. Honestly there are countless memories that I know I will always look back on and laugh. Bailey(my best friend) and I were actually talking about our favorite memories of the semester. At first it was way hard to think of the best ones, but here are some we named off:
  - My birthday weeekend, one of the most random and awkward nights of my life haha
 - Me and Bailey throwing Kit-Kat bars back and forth between each others room and laughing hysterically. 
 - Going to the Lava Hot springs, and ditching everyone else and hanging out with Mitch and Nick, and Bailey ( Another weird, but very fun night:) ) 
 - Getting stuck in the mud with Bailey, Mitch and Michael and having to walk 5 miles or so back to the highway, at night, when it was about to snow.
 - Bridge Jumping on the warmest day of the semester(water was still way cold though)
 That is all we could think of that really stuck out, that were our favorite. But i'm sure there are tons more we are just forgetting. I have some of my own favorite memories, but some of those things will just be kept to myself:) 
  Winter semester was awesome and it was way hard saying goodbye to some people, but i know that i will see them again in the fall. Even though some people told me that this was one of the mildest winters, me being a florida girl being used to 90 degree weather, it was freaking COLD! But i got used to it for the most part. Now, all the snow is gone, and is making room for warmer weather and SPRING! I've heard that spring is the best time to be out here, which just makes me that much more excited for it! However, i am taking 492646734 credits and will have to buckle down and get all my work done before i go play. 
   Well after this loooonnnngg week of waiting for everyone to come back, i will go into my third semester, and my family will be out here! I'm so stoked! I am excited for next semester and all the things that are in store! :)